Day Three

Lets be honest.....Have you ever felt like your a stranger in your own life? Like your looking in from the outside? Wondering??????????? How did I get here? Where does the time go? It feels like just yesterday I was a little girl, hiding behind my father, looking for protection from the wrath of my next oldest sibling, my brother John. I am sure he started it, and I am sure I probably deserved whatever torture he had in mind.
It seems like I blinked, and now I am almost 50 and a grandmother. And I am wondering....Have I done enough? Have I been a good person? A good friend? A good mother? A good daughter? Why am I really here? Is there a greater purpose to my life?

Maybe I should have called this blog, How to deal with a midlife crisis on the road with a shoestring budget.

Day three brought with it a full day of travel, and lots of time to think. I wondered......How is Chelsea? Will she be alright without me? How about Elaine and the Baby? Who will answer all her questions? My boyfriend, will he wait for me? Or, will i arrive back home to find someone else sleeping on my side of the bed? Will my friend Sarah forgive me for leaving right after she arrived to live at my house? Will my other friend Sarah forgive me for leaving right after she got back from breaking ground on her farm in Kentucky? Thank you both Sarah's. I couldn't have done this without your help. Sarah C. for encouraging me to start my own eBay store, and Sarah B for holding down the fort while I am gone.

 Part of this catharsis of mine is to stop.....Stop analyzing everything i do, Stop doing and being everything for everyone around me. Stop Planning everything I do everyday, and rushing around like a chicken with it's head cut off ( sorry, I hate that saying, but it really works here) In keeping with this theme I decided not to travel from St Augustine to Savannah via I 95 but to take A1A.Stop trying to get from point A to Point B as fast as I can, but to try and enjoy the journey. Stop as many times as I want, and take the back roads thru the heart of this amazing country of ours.
Great Choice.
The scenery was lovely. There were times when I was driving just yards from the edge of the Atlantic Ocean. Beautiful Homes strung along the beach with Architecture ranging from old sedate sprawling ranch's to Stilted Ultra Modern ones. All with incredible views.
It crossed my mind as i was admiring the millions of dollars wrapped up in these beach front homes,  that these are the @%^&$#@ that are the reason my Homeowners Insurance Premiums are so @#%^* High in Florida!!!! (so much for leaving it all behind. LOL) Reality has a funny way of creaping up an you at the oddest times.

Bonus!!! I even got to take a Ferry ride across the St John's River. It was short, but a memorable part of my journey thus far.